Wandering ambition, or a journey through my mind

by Matt | November 19th, 2008 |

I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s noticed InterstateQ.com hasn’t been all that it used to be, right? I mean, come on, my three-four posts per week in the past few months is nothing compared to the three-four posts per day that it used to be.

Work. Family. Dreams and aspirations.

I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. So many ideas. So much untapped potential. So little time and too many responsibilities.

Unlike my dear friend Pam, I haven’t yet reached the point of near-burnout. Thank God for that. But I am frustrated… mainly at myself.

At least year ago, perhaps longer, there once lived a happy gay boy who could. He imagined. He played. He tried and tried and if it didn’t work or he fell off, he got back up and tried again. Several projects later, I’m stuck. Kind of like in a writer’s block kind of way.

OutletNewsMedia was my grandiose (and unformulated) idea to create an online media company dishing up LGBT and progressive news, commentary, features and entertainment for the LGBT community.

It all started with InterstateQ.com. “My little site here has been such a success,” I thought, “Why couldn’t it be translated to other projects?” I’ve had neither the time nor the resources to see it through. And let’s face it… the online world is notorious for its fierce competition. Everybody wants the newest, the best and the brightest. I guess my other pet projects (OutletNewsMedia, OutCarolinas.com and more) just haven’t been that.

So… I’ve fallen off the horse enough times to realize the conclusion that’s been staring in my face for a while: What’s wrong with you, boy! You’ve got a good thing going with InterstateQ.com. Loyal readers. A community. A career. A voice and platform. Not to mention, a plethora of great folks who like to contribute to a site with a unique focus on life, the world, politics and religion. Why muddle it up with other stuff?

My conscience is right, you know. My focus should be here — the one place where my career was blossomed and the place where friends and family keep me sane (and in check).

If I ever have the time to pursue other projects, I will. And there’s nothing stopping me from coming back to other projects. But until then, my attention remains best focused on work, family, school and InterstateQ.com.

Wandering, unbridled ambition, be damned. Disciplined, focused attention, be blessed.

P.S. — InterstateQ.com is in need of some new, regular contributors. Brian and Casey have carried the torch well and it’s time to open the door to new faces. The more the merrier! If interested, shoot me an email, matt ‘at’ interstateq ‘dot’ com.

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